quinnfabrayhbic:

puckasaurusrex:

quinnfabrayhbic:

His words were like a slap in her face.  She sucked in air as if she was punched in the gut by his words.  ”I loved this baby, it was my baby!  I just didn’t like the timing, but you know I was getting used to it and I wanted this baby just as much as you did.  Don’t you dare tell me I didn’t want this baby and that my feelings aren’t every bit as real as yours!”  She glared at him the anger starting to take over again, at least being angry was better than the pain.  ”You have no idea what I’ve been through the last few weeks!  I’m sorry I needed time to build the courage to tell you!”  She clenched her fists trying to keep the anger from bubbling over.  ”I know it was your baby and I wanted you to have those last few moments where you could be happy about this baby and not destroy you with the reality!  This has NOTHING to do with Josh, if he hadn’t been the one to find me bleeding and cramping he wouldn’t have known either!  He wanted to call you when I was in the hospital, but there was no need for you to see that.”  

“It was my baby too! But apparently that wasn’t a good enough reason for me to know that there was something wrong, that it wasn’t even there anymore! This isn’t something you take your time in telling Quinn!” Getting to his feet, his jaw gritted, his body flooded in anger before he turned back to her. “I would have had an idea if you’d fucking told me! You should have told me! Let me mourn my kid instead of…apartment searching and planning out a nursery for a baby that’s not even there!” He shouted, his eyes welling up again but he snarled in frustration. “Build me up just to let me fall further. Do you have any idea how fucking cruel that is, Quinn?” Resting his head against the wall, he squeezed his eyes shut. “For once he was right. You should have called. It should have been me there beside you.”

“I just didn’t know how to tell you.  Just be like ‘Oh hey, at school this past week I had two exams and our baby died, what do you want me to make for dinner?’  I was upset I’m dealing with it too!”  She took a deep breath watching him.  ”Maybe I wanted you to keep looking, it doesn’t have to be for nothing, we can get pregnant again.  We can have our baby back and continue to do all that.”  She looked up hopefully wanting desperately for that feeling again.  ”No one was beside me, Puck.  I didn’t want anyone there and you wouldn’t have wanted to be there.  The had this thing that sucked the baby and all the baby stuff that was in there for him out and that was that.  My baby was dead and there was nothing I could do.  I never got to hold him or see him.  They wouldn’t let me see him.”  She looked down wiping her eyes not wanting to relive that moment again.  ”You wouldn’t have wanted to see that and live that…no one should’ve.” 

“Oh well that excuses it. That makes everything okay! Tell me, would you even have told me if I hadn’t have forced it from you Quinn? Were we just going to go a few months and then tell me when there obviously isn’t a baby? Just leave it for me to discover for myself?” Puck snarled at her, shaking his head angrily. “You think that’ll just solve it? Our baby is gone but we’ll replace it with the next?” He jaw was clenched furiously, his fingers curled into tight fists. “I should have been there! It’s not about wanting to be Quinn. I should have been there! That was our baby! Our baby! Our fucking baby!” He kicked over a table, it falling on it side, the lamp on it smashing before he slumped down onto the floor, hiding his face in his knees. “No one should have…you’re right. But it happened, and I should have been there. It wasn’t your right to dictate otherwise…”