quinnfabrayhbic:

puckasaurusrex:

quinnfabrayhbic:

“Because…everything’s changed.  I didn’t want it to.  I don’t deserve to be close to you.”  She looked down hating this hating being close to him hating herself for wanting to be close to him.  He was going to hate her and she knew it.  He was going to blame her and he should.  Her eyes widened when she heard his accusations.  ”Wait, what?  No!  No…How…why?  You think I would cheat on you?” She stood up glaring at him.  ”I would NEVER cheat on you.  Wow, thanks for the confidence that you KNEW I would eventually cheat on you.”  She couldn’t believe the nerve that he had to think that she would do something like that, it hurt that he would jump to that conclusion before anything else.  Though, maybe it would’ve been easier if that was what she had to tell him.  

The last thing Puck wanted to think was that she was cheating on him, and it was a conclusion he’d tried not to jump to. But he’d wrecked his brains and the more she spoke, the more it seemed more likely. “Oh come on Quinn! What the fuck else am I suppose to think? You’re always talking to him, always so damn secretive. You’ve barely looked at me in two weeks and now you’re telling me something happened and he’s trying to get you to confess to whatever it is?” He wasn’t trying to hurt her, but he was hurting and surely she could see why he was thinking the way he was. Getting to his feet again, he pinched the bridge of his nose. “The odds aren’t exactly stacked in your favor, so if you’re looking to break up with me then just do it, because this whole…whatever this is between us, I can’t fucking deal with it anymore.”

She was getting frustrated now, couldn’t he see how much she was hurting how much this was killing her inside and still he just didn’t get it.  ”I’m not cheating on you I never would!”  She yelled at him trying to get him to understand that.  ”You want to know what I’m hiding?  You want to know why Josh is trying to get me to tell you?  I lost the baby okay, I had a miscarriage and I lost the baby.  It’s gone, there’s no baby…you happy now?”  She had said it and the tears were pouring down her cheeks, it was real now that she had said it and the pain was so much worse than the physical pain she had experienced.  

For the longest time, Puck just stood there, completely struck dumb. The words just wouldn’t sink in; his brain could not process them, it was in rebellion, refusing to accept that what she was saying was true. He would have preferred if she had been cheating on him. At least that way…that way there was something to fix or at least a way to bluntly call it quits for logical reasons. This…he didn’t know how to deal with this at all. She lost the baby. Not the baby, their baby. She’s lost it and she hadn’t even told him. For two weeks he’d been contenting himself with the idea of becoming a dad again, getting excited at the prospect even. Beth had been looking forward to being a big sister, hell he’d even raided through Beth’s old baby things to see what they had. He’d been building himself to find out just like that, that their baby was…gone. Staggering back into the chair, Puck slumped into it; the expression on his face more of shock that anything as he struggled to comprehend what was going on. “I…” He tried to croak out a formidable sentence but it all got stuck in the back of his throat. “It…it’s gone?”